The most astonishing book you'll read in 2021 - selected as one to watch by Vogue, Grazia and Marie Claire 'I will never forget her eyes in that moment - I couldn't look away from them. But I knew what happened as soon as I heard it. 'I think she pushed him,' I said to you quietly. 'I think she pushed him...' ---- 'I read it in one sitting. Not to be missed' Lisa Jewell 'Unsettling, visceral, provocative, compulsive' Sarah Vaughan ---- The arrival of baby Violet was meant to be the happiest day of my life. But as soon as I held her in my arms I knew something wasn't right. I had always known that the women in my family aren't meant to be mothers. My husband Fox says I'm imagining it. He tells me I'm nothing like my own mother, and that Violet is the sweetest child. But she's different with me. Something feels very wrong. Is it her? Or is it me? Is she the monster? Or am I?