THE PHENOMENAL KOREAN BESTSELLER TRANSLATED BY INTERNATIONAL BOOKER SHORTLISTEE ANTON HUR PSYCHIATRIST: So how can I help you? ME: I don't know; I'm - what's the word - depressed? Do I have to go into detail? Baek Sehee is a successful young social media director at a publishing house when she begins seeing a psychiatrist about her - what to call it? - depression? She feels persistently low; anxious; endlessly self-doubting; but also highly judgemental of others. She hides her feelings well at work and with friends; adept at performing the calmness; even ease; her lifestyle demands. The effort is exhausting; overwhelming; and keeps her from forming deep relationships. This can't be normal. But if she's so hopeless; why can she always summon a desire for her favourite street food; the hot; spicy rice cake; tteokbokki? Is this just what life is like? Recording her dialogues with her psychiatrist over a 12-week period; Baek begins to disentangle the feedback loops; knee-jerk reactions and harmful behaviours that keep her locked in a cycle of self-abuse. Part memoir; part self-help book; I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki is a book to keep close and to reach for in times of darkness.